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  Also by Nisha Sharma

  My So-Called Bollywood Life

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents either are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

  Text copyright © 2021 by Nisha Seesan

  Cover art copyright © 2021 by Justin Poulter

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  Names: Sharma, Nisha, author.

  Title: Radha & Jai’s recipe for romance / Nisha Sharma.

  Other titles: Radha and Jai’s recipe for romance

  Description: First edition. | New York: Crown Books for Young Readers, [2021] | Audience: Ages 14+. | Audience: Grades 10–12. | Summary: Told in two voices, teens Radha and Jai, seniors at a New Jersey performing arts high school, reignite their passion for dance and find strength in one another to pursue their dreams.

  Identifiers: LCCN 2020050289 | ISBN 978-0-553-52329-4 (hardcover) | ISBN 978-0-553-52330-0 (library binding) | ISBN 978-0-553-52331-7 (ebook)

  Subjects: CYAC: Dance—Fiction. | Dating (Social customs)—Fiction. | Cooking, Indic—Fiction. | East Indian Americans—Fiction. | High schools—Fiction. | Schools—Fiction.

  Classification: LCC PZ7.1.S4837 Rad 2021 | DDC [Fic]—dc23

  Ebook ISBN 9780553523317

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  Contents

  Cover

  Also by Nisha Sharma

  Title Page

  Copyright

  Dedication

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Chapter Twenty-two

  Chapter Twenty-three

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Epilogue

  Act F.A.S.T. Response

  An Apology and an Author’s Note

  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  To Dr. R. K. Sharma, who always put the dreams of his children before his own.

  Love you, Daddy.

  This one’s for you.

  Chapter One

  London, England

  January

  Radha

  Radha had to pee.

  Like, really bad.

  Honestly, she should’ve predicted it after all the years she’d been dancing. Every time she performed, her entire body reacted…including her bladder. After nailing a routine she’d been working on for months at the International Kathak Classics semifinals, the urge was particularly heinous.

  And not a toilet in sight, she thought. Radha looked around backstage for her mother. If she disappeared without letting Sujata Chopra know, the woman would have a meltdown. Sujata was even more high-strung about the competition than Radha was, since it had been her dream for Radha to perform. Being the best had never been a priority for Radha, though. The only thing that mattered to her was that she got the chance to dance.

  “Hey, Farah,” Radha said to the stage manager rushing past her. “Have you seen my mother?”

  Farah covered the mic attached to her ear and shook her head. “Did you need something?”

  “I wanted to run to the dressing room for a moment. I have to p—uh, fix my anarkali.” She motioned to her long gown, which covered her from her neck to right above her ankles.

  “If your mum asks, I’ll let her know where you are. Go ahead, love. You only have twenty minutes before you’ll have to be back in the wings again.”

  “Thanks.”

  Radha hurried down the stairs and into the basement under the stage. The hallways were empty since most of the contestants had left. There were only four semifinalists, so there was no point in the other contestants sticking around.

  Her ghungroos, two hundred bells on each nylon cord wrapped around her ankles, chimed as she ran on her tiptoes toward the end of the hall. She paused halfway, horrified, just as the event DJ started to play hype music. An Indian classical-dance competition shouldn’t have hype music. It was a serious occasion, and random Bollywood movie songs cheapened such a prestigious event.

  Holy Vishnu, I’m starting to think like my mother.

  The basement walls vibrated with the sound, which drowned out Radha’s footsteps until she reached the dressing room.

  She stepped through the doorway, and over the faded bass from the DJ upstairs she heard the sound of conversation coming from the other side of the lockers.

  “Yeah, my mom sent me an SMS and said she did amazing,” Diya said in her screechy voice. She was the oldest of the semifinalists—twelve years Radha’s senior—and had trained with her when they were in Rajasthan, India, a few years ago.

  “She could dance like a gorilla and she’d still win,” Rippi said. “Haven’t you heard about her mother?”

  “Sujata Roy Chopra? The famous kathak dancer, right? She stopped performing like twenty years ago. People forgot about her until Radha showed up, but from what it looks like, Sujata controls Radha like a puppet.” Trish, a Canadian dancer, snorted. “It’s like her mother says do a chakkar, and Radha turns without question.”

  Oh my God, Radha thought. They were talking about her. She froze, hoping that her ghungroos hadn’t given her away. All thoughts of bathroom visits disappeared.

  “A few people from the committee told me that Sujata Chopra was seen with a principal judge after the celebratory cocktail party,” Rippi said. “Apparently Radha’s mom and this judge were very, very friendly, if you know what I mean.”

  “I don’t think I’m following,” Trish said. “Was it just flirting or…more?”

  “Well, from what I was told, they left together. I believe it, too. Sujata Chopra has a reputation in the industry. She’d lie, cheat, and steal to make sure her daughter won.”

  No. No way. Radha felt bile burning in the back of her throat. Her mother was a litt
le pushy, but she would never betray Radha and her father like that.

  Would she? The idea of her mother cheating…Oh my God.

  “Gross,” Diya said. “It makes sense why we’ve all lost to her so many times, though. Remember the Singapore competition in May? Radha choreographed her own number, and it was awful. She still won, which confused everybody there.”

  “I can definitely see her mother cheating for her to win in Singapore,” Trish said. “I wonder if Radha knows. Like, is she the kind of person who is okay with that? She must have an idea of what Sujata is doing. Or who she’s doing.”

  “Even if she didn’t know about her mom,” Diya replied, “she probably wouldn’t react if someone told her. She has no personality at all unless she’s on a stage. If you ask her a question, it’s like you’re asking a piece of cardboard. She’s nothing, nobody, outside of dance.”

  “The fact that she’s boring and a mommy’s girl doesn’t make me feel bad for her,” Rippi said. “What does make me angry is that I spent years working for this moment, to get to the International Kathak Classics, just like you two have, and Radha gets to the finals because her mother is having an affair? That’s dirty, and it cheapens our art form.”

  Radha felt the radiating sting of Rippi’s words like a punch. Dancers could be mean to each other. She wasn’t completely clueless. But Radha had considered these dancers her peers. Instead they were picking her apart and slut-shaming her mother.

  What was worse, they weren’t just talking about her mother cheating, but about her mother doing so to help Radha win a competition that Radha didn’t even care about.

  They had to be wrong. Her mother was pushy and demanding, but she would never jeopardize their family and Radha’s career like that.

  Even as she vehemently denied it in her heart, puzzle pieces from the last few months started to pop into place. Her mother had been acting stranger than usual. Then, last night, she’d said she had to go attend some business meetings. Radha hadn’t thought anything of it before putting on a sleep mask and going to bed.

  She hadn’t asked any questions. She never asked questions.

  Radha wanted to yell, to scream at Diya, Rippi, and Trish. To show them the cuts and bruises on her feet from her hours of practice. To pull out her training calendar and prove to them that she’d worked just as hard as everybody to get to where she was, maybe even harder. Four a.m. wake-up calls for early-morning practice followed by another three to five hours after school every day. No breaks, no vacations, no friends. Her father owned an Indian restaurant in Chicago, for God’s sake, but she drank protein shakes and ate steamed veggies every day of her life just to stay in shape.

  That only proved Diya’s point, though: that she had no life outside of kathak. When she was a kid, she used to say that kathak gave her “dance joy” and made her feel complete. But where did that leave her? With no personality, and a slew of competitive wins that were now questionable.

  She rocked on her heels, and her ghungroos made the faintest ringing sound. Her breath came short and fast now as her lungs tried to pull in enough air.

  Oh my God. Was she having a panic attack? She could tell because it felt familiar, even though she hadn’t experienced one in a long time. She’d been managing her performance anxiety just fine. Especially when she focused on her love for dance, and not the onstage part. But there wasn’t a stage in sight.

  Her hand trembled as she pressed her fingertips to her lips. She breathed in deep through her nose, hoping to stop the dizziness, the urge to gasp for air. The hype music began to fade, and the three girls moved in a flurry of ruffling costumes and bells.

  “Let’s go,” Rippi said. “We don’t want to be late.”

  Radha was still standing in the doorway when they appeared from behind the lockers. Their faces were a study of shock and horror when they saw her.

  She didn’t care. Radha watched them for a moment, feeling a sickening sense of satisfaction at their discomfort, before tilting her chin up. Like hell would she let the competition see her trembling, struggling to take deep breaths.

  She walked past them, hands fisted, toward the back of the dressing room. Radha focused on putting one foot in front of the other until she reached the table that had been assigned to her.

  The surface was covered in tubes, color palettes, hairpins, and safety pins. She picked up her empty bag from the floor and, with one quick jerk of her arm, swept everything into the duffel.

  She then went to her locker to put on her coat and shoes. In less than a minute she had all her things together and was ready to go.

  Her three competitors were still rooted in the spot where she’d left them.

  Radha strode forward until she was nose to nose with Rippi. The twenty-six-year-old looked fake in her stage makeup, with rosy red cheeks and eyeliner that covered most of her lids.

  Radha’s voice was as sharp as a blade. “Slut-shaming is a reflection on you more than anyone else. Don’t ever talk about my mother like that again.”

  Rippi jumped and visibly swallowed. She didn’t say another word as Radha walked around her and left the dressing room.

  She passed familiar faces, people who touched her arm, as she made her way into the lobby. She was going to keep walking until the sounds of the DJ’s horrible music went away and she could find silence at the hotel.

  Her pulse raced as she grew closer and closer to the exit doors. This place was no longer for her.

  “Radha! Radha, where are you going?”

  The familiar sound of her mother’s voice didn’t slow her down.

  “Radha Chopra, stop this instant!”

  Long, slender fingers grabbed her arm and whirled her around. Her mother, radiating anger, looked more out of place in the lobby than Radha did. Sujata’s white pencil heels and white pantsuit were what Radha always thought of as her mother’s pharmaceutical-company-executive attire. Now she realized that the woman was trying to stand out in a sea of South Asian clothes. She wanted the spotlight more than Radha ever did.

  “Where do you think you’re going?” Radha’s mother hissed. “They’re about to announce the finalists! I went downstairs to get you, and those girls told me you left with your bags. Do you know how embarrassing that was for me? What’s gotten into you, causing a scene like this? You’re lucky this competition allowed so few people backstage; otherwise, you would never have been able to leave my side for one second!”

  “Did you sleep with one of the judges, Mom?”

  The question should’ve warranted a slap across the face. It was crude, and disrespectful, and delivered with all the bubbling hostility Radha felt inside her body. Some Indian parents wouldn’t have hesitated to deliver a swift punishment.

  Instead Sujata’s grip slackened, and her jaw dropped. “Where did you—where did you hear that?”

  “It’s true, isn’t it? It’s true that you…How could you? I think I’m going to be sick.”

  “This is not a place to talk about family. Come on, stop the dramatics. Let’s go.”

  Radha stepped back, out of her mother’s reach. “No. You swore you’d never lie to me. That you’d always be honest. And you are! Just this morning. My makeup needs work. My feet are slow. I start slacking at the two-minute mark. Now I’m asking you for the truth again. Did you cheat on Daddy? Did you do it with a judge? For what, because you wanted me to win?”

  Radha’s mother straightened. “Don’t you dare talk to me like that, Radha. I don’t know why you’ve decided to misbehave now, but we have been working for this moment for your entire career. You will not lose sight of what is important.”

  “You can’t even deny it,” Radha said. She felt revulsion, like she was on the verge of vomiting, and the idea of dancing only made the feeling worse. The tremors that had started in her hands were now quaking through her whole body. “It’s all over your
face. How c-could you? How could you d-do this?”

  “Radha, it’s not…it’s so much more complicated than you think, sweetheart.” Her mother’s voice softened almost to a whisper. “Your father and I have a lot of pressure on our shoulders, and this has nothing to do with you, or with the competition. For years I—”

  “This has been going on for years?”

  “No! Yes. I mean—just come backstage.” She tugged on Radha’s coat sleeve. “Finish the competition, and we’ll talk.”

  Radha pulled away even as her vision blurred and her muscles tightened. She was going to vomit all over the lobby floor. “No. I’m not going anywhere with you.”

  “Radha, you have nowhere else to go! Look where you are!” She waved her hands in a windmill motion.

  “To Dad. I’m going to Dad,” she said with a wheeze.

  “And then what?” She clapped inches from Radha’s face. “I’m the one who travels with you, who comes to every practice, to every performance. I’m the one who has always had your future, your life as my best interest.”

  “Dad has always loved me!”

  “You and your father don’t even speak to each other!”

  Radha felt the air get sucked from her lungs. People were watching now, and she wasn’t going to fall apart in front of them. Not like this.

  “At least he would never betray me,” she whispered. She backed away, and for the second time in the span of minutes, in moments, she was satisfied at seeing the shock on someone else’s face.

  “Radha, Radha, don’t go.” This time, her mother’s voice cracked. “You’ve fought so hard to be here! Please. Please don’t do this.”

  “I can’t, Mom.” Her voice hiccuped with the sob she could no longer control. “All I’ll ever be able to think about now is whether I’m dancing for me or dancing for you. Or, worse, if you didn’t think I could win on my own, so you went behind my back, behind Daddy’s back, because you wanted to win more than me, because you stopped dancing before you could win this competition yourself.”